Hullo lovely readers..
So, date two last night. To catch you up, he wanted to hang out Friday and saturday night, but I said no to Friday since it was too soon, and Saturday I had plans with my friends. Saturday he wanted to do dinner at a really nice restaurant and get a hotel. A hotel. Yeah. Um, little fast/pressure…
So I go over last night and, it seemed innocent enough at first and then he is trying to get me into his room…and eventually we do hook up, but no sex. He wanted to of course. And then he starts talking about how he is going to get up early and asks me what I’m doing, and it’s like 1230 at this point… So I’m kind of not talking much and then say I’m thinking, are you kicking me out? But in a different way, so he says I knew you were going to think that and I can stay over if I want to but he’s worried it’s a little aggressive to be sleeping over already but it’s up to me…
Obviously I passed, and then he said so now it seems like this was just to hook up and go but it wasn’t that just that things ran late timing wise. So he suggested we watch tv which sounded good but then…
I said something about him being a lot less guarded than I am and he said well I am but in a different way, I find reasons not to be with people
OH. Like, really? I’ll leave now. But I joked and said and how is that working out for you and he said well I’m single so haven’t worked it out yet…
But at that point I was like, okay….. And then things got weird
Like I didn’t wanna be there. And he thought I was mad at him for something, he asked right before I left… I said no and kissed him a bunch.
But truth be told he scared me.. Like cool so I can get to know you and you can disappear? Just like everyone else? #abandonmentissues
He texted me after I left to say drive safe.
Blahhhh
Confused now. Slash kind of feel used. Slash but he said it wasn’t like that. But it feels like it. 
gettingtotheotherside 