Here we are, at the end of the month, and things were pretty stable with Sky until …day before yesterday? I was surprised, because after a week of texting he suddenly got very open with me — for some background, he got his back scanned, has 2 herniated discs, and is in a shit-ton of pain. So they gave him heroin-class pain drugs in addition to the muscle relaxers.
Friday night he decided to have some wine with things, and then kind of got wacky over texts. Then he started talking about wanting to know why he does the things he does/is the way he is, that he knows his mom left him as a child etc but doesn’t think that’s the whole reason for his behavior, that it’s behind that.
What else. Oh, that he isn’t fully sure he has the heart he used to have, (I brought up why I call him out on his shit sometimes, he was like oh really, when–but then talked about it).
So I said I know it’s not him, sometimes he shows me that same heart and that’s how I know I’m right about him – he said, one day we will see. So he didn’t say no… but, it’s not like he said yes, either. Or at least not right now.
We still haven’t talked about us, and to be honest I was getting a bit fed up since, he doesn’t ask about me at all. After that chat Friday, I just let it go. Figured he’d want space. He texted me Sunday, but was super short with me – one word responses. I was like, why did you text me then? Seriously.
Then I think I texted him Monday, and he was snippy with me again.
Same thing Tuesday… I clarified something I said, and left it. He hasn’t tried to talk to me since then either (it’s only Thursday, so no big deal, but still — no idea how long it would go on for.)
I am a bit angry, or okay, just angry, since I was only trying to be there for him as a friend. No need to bite my head off or act like you’re doing me a favor by talking to me. Be nice to show interest in my life.
Anyway, I’m done reaching out to him. We never talked about us, and what happened during the visit; he hasn’t asked about my life or days at all; he just seems like..well, he doesn’t care. I understand he’s in a lot of pain. But… still. IDK. I guess I’m fed up given I’m getting so little out of the relationship at this point.
It’s sad, but, what’s a girl to do? I have a call schedule with Skarlet for Saturday to go over stuff..
Okay well now it’s Friday. No word Wednesday, but he texted me today and yesterday. So, he wants to keep in touch. Things got a little flirty today, but yeah, still not talk of us really. It’s more keep the connection going and the flirtation open at times. Its nice that he initiates texting… I don’t know what more we can really do than that.